Play For Keeps by B.o.B

Notes to self

Letting go of the past is a skill. And it takes time to master it. You can't hold on to the past forever. It will ruin you and it could possibly be your cause of insanity and death! Tak percaya ke?

Look, if you are still clinging to the past, you will miss the fun and excitement of the present. You will be forever dwelling in disappointment and sadness. Then, you will start wishing on how you can turn back time which is something you can't do. Once you start wishing for something, you will be stuck in that moment forever as wishing for something won't do any good to you. It stops you from moving forward.

DON'T let your past and its useless details choke your existence. Remember, when your past calls, don't answer. It has nothing new to say. Keep looking ahead.

of frustration and chocolate

tadaaaaaa.....okay, you may get the hint from the title on what this entry is all about. Good. I need not explain much since I am mentally and emotionally exhausted right now, friggin' exhausted! Look, you are allowed to be mad at the world once in a while, you're not robots, FGS. 

So today wasn't my day. It was disastrous. Really? Whatever! But I refuse to dwell on it. Am I contradicting myself! Not dwelling but becoming an emotional eater. hahahaha

Long story short, I found a new trick for my sad self besides reading, dating and blogging which is BAKINGGGGG! Been baking for a while and it magically makes me believe that 'hey, there's some other ways that no human being alive can hurt you and it's BAKING!'

And the next thing I know, I'm in the kitchen chopping chocolate bars while waiting for the cream to simmer. Guess what? Chocolate truffles on the wayyyyyyyyy.

Since my babies aren't ready yet (still in fridge! grrrr), I present you chocolate truffles *pic credit to google*

Drooling? Don't blame me. Adios! *wink*

Engineering & Literature

Coincidently taught my engineering students literature (well, just a tiny part of literature). How did it happen? During the class, some of them used CAPITAL LETTERS in the CV write up. And I was just explaining on how all the words were screaming at me, wanting my undivided attention, oh and it annoyed me. (Thinks it annoys everyone) Writing in CAPS is considered rude, as if you're shouting to the readers. I suppose everybody knows this. Right? 

So long story short! The poem Si Tenggang's Homecoming comes to my mind, on why the author used small letter of i instead of I in his poem. It's so brilliant that I only happen to know this during Dr Edwin's class (undergrad). Something that english teachers in school failed to explain or couldn't be bothered, about the essence of the poem, instead, rushing to finish up the syllabus. But, blaming teachers alone is absurd. Policy makers? Got it?

So, the reason on why the small i instead the big I is, the small i symbolizes his humbleness. Well I don't really want to go in depth about this poem but you can read it here, then you'll know what I mean. 

http://literature.com.my/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=407&Itemid=368

So, anyway, I don't really believe that literature is not for everybody. Yes, It requires high order thinking skills (some think it's not as tougher as physics, math etc) *roll eyes* and it could really make us understand certain cultures better. IF you wanna learn English, you have to learn their literature. Literature is essential in learning a second or foreign language. Hope you know why. If not, go and ask your English teacher. =p

exhausted & frustrated

Sometimes i wish i can say 'get the fuck out of my life' or 'mind your own fucking business' or simply 'go to hell'...All these bad words will come out when i feel cheated and betrayed. And no, this has nothing to do with my love life! 

At a second thought, i'm just hoping that i could change my profession, maybe teaching isn't the thing for me. Maybe i would do better in something else, something that is inside me since forever. Sigh

You see...When you have given all out and nobody appreciates and trusts you, that's it! 

I may look like I don't care but that's totally the opposite of it. Life can be bitchy at times but I never fail to embrace it with a smile and courage. 

I should have done better or perhaps, teaching is no longer my passion. Dealing with people who never trust you is sickening. Perhaps this is why we never progressed. We are so ignorant thinking we're the only referred and respected persons that the others have no value and should be observed and checked all time.

I refuse to be defensive as I believe I know what I have been doing so far. To say i don't care, that would be an understatement. But hell yes, if you want to check on me, be my guest! You are just as pathetic as the others. 

So many issues, so less productive, so demotivated. Thanks a lot.