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i'm still here

It's been more than a month since I last updated my blog. To say I was busy, that would be an understatement. Actually, I've been juggling with few things on my own and still struggling to accept the fact that I'm neither here nor there. Dang!

I've learnt that I can't satisfy all people around me; too many to think of, which at last, I ended up feeling sorry for myself. And crying my heart out won't fix anything, it just makes things worst. The harder I cry, the more negative I will be. So I will just vent out whatever I feel here:

1. Most Arabics nowadays are big fat liars. Very pretentious. They preach, but never practice.

2. Everyone is two-faced with the person they pretend they like. Yes, I mean, everyone, including myself. Very nice in front, bitchy behind your back.

3. No one is save from people talk/bad mouth, even Rasul Allah peace be upon him.

4. Favouritism is considered normal in your workplace. Kiss ass a lot and you'll be loved.

5. Some of us will use religion as an excuse or back up in order to defend ourselves or to cover up our own shit.

6. We are selfish in our own way. If you aren't, you're fake!

7. Reality bites! Very hard indeed!

Those are what I remembered although there are many more! 

I know if we keep on whining, works will not be done and in the end, we will be the ones who are in trouble. And for those who bad mouth us, let them be. Easier said than done? After all, we too bad mouthing other people sometimes. 

Despite all the heartache today, I manage to put a smile with the one and ones I care about. Thank you.

But, I do regret I went extra mile for them when all they see is the dark side of me. I regretted I taught them only to see my effort gone wasted. I regretted being so thoughtful when they leave me broken and discourage.

But, don't we remember only the dark and forget the good? 

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I'm Lost!

I am in a deep shit.
I believe so.
I don't like routine but what the hell am I doing here?

Sometimes I wish I can do more.
But that more isn't this?!!

How guys should treat their wife

MasyaAllah. This vid really makes me wanting to get married asap, if and if only, my future husband treats me like this. Aww~

Hello 2012, Goodbye 2011

Another milestone. And a challenging journey upon me. Wishing myself best of luck in accomplishing my new year resolution for 2012. Here are the list:

1. Read 2 books every month (piece of cake)
2. Buy less shoes and handbags (ouch!)
3. Go to work as early as 8am (early bird gets the worm, remember?)
4. Enrol in UKM (Grammar? Testing & Evaluation? - to be choosed later)
5. Save RM100 per month (FGS, do SAVE)
6. Spend more time for badminton & jog (with loved one)
7. Make a DIY garden (lilies and lots of lilies)
8. Strive to be a good employee (be competetive)
9. Stop eating outside (it's unhealthy anyway)
10. Try baking cookies (this needs a lot of courage =p)
11. Go to 1 conference (MICELT maybe)

These are the least that I can think of at the moment. As the saying goes, Make Hay While The Sun Shines, I will hopefully manage to grab as many chances as I can next year.

26 and successful! Beat 'em.