NUMB

It's never easy to take care of a sick mom. I am tested but my patience is very limited. Worry if I am no longer able to control myself and let the evil inside me takes over me. Sigh

*wink*

Dear walls,

Keep our secret. =p

                                                                 With love,
                                                                    F & H

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He is the reason I stay. Everyday is a struggle for me but I still stay. Sigh.

16th May

Happy Teacher's Day to all fantabulous teachers out there including myself. Surely, being a teacher makes us human! Teachers don't make a lot of money but we do generate engineers, architects, doctors, businessmen etc. And we are so damn proud to be one. Satisfaction guaranteed when we discover students we taught become successful.

I often ask myself 'when'

Whenever I feel like running from home, I would think of my mum's sacrifices. And that will surely hold my thought of running away.

p/s: I can be selfish, I can put myself first, BUT I'm living in the society that practices caring of other people's feelings first! Fucked up, eh.

He loves me no more

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Ape ni? What happened to my blog? I changed so many things including the song. Grrr
Carca merba semua ni? Dengan mood yang macam taik ni. Siot la...

Tragic Pride!

Hates everyone around me now. They're such pain in you-know-where. What the fuck? Don't they have nothing else better to do than meddling in my business? Get the fuck outta my life. I'm better off without anybody. Damn. Stressful ok!!! I need some space, just let me breathe!

NEEDS an escape!

I do sound like someone who has given up on life, aight? I will apply for a loan, pay all bills,resignfrom my current job and lastly, fly to the states. This surely is not the last resort, the ultimate choice instead. Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Same old routines and fights. I want myself to be the center of my own attention. I don't want to think about other human being in this world. I wanna be selfish. I wanna be selfish!!! I want everything to just revolve around me and just me. I'm so daring to say fuck everyone else! I need the life I wanted so badly. I just want to do everything without ever giving a fuck about everyone else.

Sounds like a good plan, suicide indeed. But hell yeah, just wait till YOU PEOPLE succeed in reaching my BOILING POINT.

A Lil Convo

Did you just ask that?

Yeah, I did. But hurm, I should just cry to bed. Nobody cares...

I do, heh

I know right? I wish...Well, how I wish I'm Alice.

Why so?

So I can plan an escape.


LOL. You have so much fairytales in your head. Reality isn't so bad.

Hear you. Hear you.


Don't dwell too much in sadness. It can eat you inside out.

Better than living this way...

Much Awaited Proposal

I have what I want to say in my head but urm, too caught up with MUET plus writer's block! So, I'll update later. When I have all the time in the world. Heh btw, how do you want to be proposed?