Hello 2012, Goodbye 2011

Another milestone. And a challenging journey upon me. Wishing myself best of luck in accomplishing my new year resolution for 2012. Here are the list:

1. Read 2 books every month (piece of cake)
2. Buy less shoes and handbags (ouch!)
3. Go to work as early as 8am (early bird gets the worm, remember?)
4. Enrol in UKM (Grammar? Testing & Evaluation? - to be choosed later)
5. Save RM100 per month (FGS, do SAVE)
6. Spend more time for badminton & jog (with loved one)
7. Make a DIY garden (lilies and lots of lilies)
8. Strive to be a good employee (be competetive)
9. Stop eating outside (it's unhealthy anyway)
10. Try baking cookies (this needs a lot of courage =p)
11. Go to 1 conference (MICELT maybe)

These are the least that I can think of at the moment. As the saying goes, Make Hay While The Sun Shines, I will hopefully manage to grab as many chances as I can next year.

26 and successful! Beat 'em.



Just sharing and caring as a friend.

Health

1.       Drink Plenty Of Water

2.       Eat Breakfast Like A King, Lunch Like A Prince, Dinner Like  A Beggar

3.       Live With The 3 E’s – Energy, Enthusiasm And Empathy

4.       Pray!

5.       Play More Games

6.       Read More Books Than You Did In 2011

7.       Sit In Silence For At Least 10 Minutes Each Day

8.       Sleep For 7 Hours

9.       Take A 10 – 30 Minutes Walk Daily And While You Walk…Smile

Personality

10.    Don’t Over Do. Keep Your Limits

11.    Don’t Take Yourself Seriously. No One Else Does

12.    Dream More While You’re Awake

13.    Envy Is A Waste Of Time. You Already  Have All You Need

14.    Forget Issues Of The Past. Don’t Remind Your Partner With His/Her Mistake Of The Past. That Will    Ruin Your Present Happiness

15.    Life Is Too Short To Waste Time Hating Everyone, Don’t Hate Others

16.    Make Peace With Your Past, So It Won’t Spoil The Present

17.    No One Is In Charge Of Your Happiness Except You

18.    Smile And Laugh More

19.    You Don’t Have To Win Every Argument. Agree To Disagree

Society

20.    Call Your Family Often

21.    Each Day Give Something Good To Others

22.    Forgive Everyone For Everything

23.    Spend Time With People Over The Age Of 70 And Under The Age Of 6

24.    Try To Make At Least Three People Smile Each Day

25.    What Other People Think Of You Is None Of Your Business

Life

26.    Do The Right Thing

27.    God Heals Everything

28.    However Good Or Bad A Situation Is, It Will Change

29.    No Matter How You Feel, Get Up, Dress Up And Show Up

30.    The Best Is Yet To Come

31.    When Awake In The Morning, Thank God For It

32.    Your Inner Is Always Happy. So Be Happy

TRY this!

SIMPLE BUT EFFECTIVE EXERCISE

The essence of the exercise is that your "Eyes Must be Closed" when you are doing this exercise. You must practise the "Jin Ji Du Li" exercise with the eyes closed. This exercise was so simple and amazing that I thought I had to share it here.

 

Here is the exercise:

Stand on one leg while your eyes are closed. That is all. Just try it right now, stop reading and stand up, close your eyes and try standing on one foot.

 

If you are not able to stand for less than 10 seconds, it means that your body has degenerated to 60 to 70 years old level in other words, you may be only 40 years old, but your body has aged a lot faster.

 

I tried this exercise myself when I read the mail. I thought “oh, big deal, I’m sure I can do this easily” I was fooling myself, I’m glad I tried it because I discovered much to my surprise that while I could stand easily on one foot with my eyes open, trying the same thing with my eyes closed was another story! I just could not keep my balance for more than two to three seconds before I started wobbling and hopping around.

 

You do not need to lift your leg high, if your internal organs are out of synch, even lifting your leg this bit will make you wobble.

 

Now this was quite scary because it told me that my body was almost 50 years old and here was me, barely into my twenties! These Chinese are really very advanced in their knowledge of the human body. It was very heartening to know that frequent and regular practice can help you recover your sense of balance. In fact Chinese specialists suggest daily practice of Jin Ji Du Li for 1 minute, this helps prevent dementia.

 

You can try slightly closing both eyes while practicing Jin Ji Du Li, instead of completely closing them; in fact this is what the health specialist Zhong Li Ba Ren recommends.

Daily practice of Jin Ji Du Li, can help in healing many illnesses or diseases like

• Hypertension,
• High Blood Sugar or diabetes,
• Neck and Spinal diseases,
• Dementia

Jin Ji Du Li is suitable for everyone generally. It is the basic cure for "Cold Feet Disease” and it can also strengthen the body’s immunity. You do not have to wait until you have any illness to start practising Jin Ji Du Li. It is especially beneficial for young people, when they practice it daily while they are healthy, so that their chances of contracting the various illness associated with aging is comparative lower.

 

Please note that it is not suitable for people over 70 years old, or those old people whose legs are not strong and cannot stand steadily.

 

Random!

Boleh terima tak tetibe je perasaan menyampah tu datang kat kita? Ok, to make it worse, menyampah kat orang yang kita sayang boleh tak? 

I say, it's normal! Like completely NORMAL! I have my own justifications why tiba-tiba menyampah ok. It's not that he didn't reply my message. It's the reason (excuse?) to it.

"................ boleh, reply msg tak boleh"

Enough for this duniawi thingy, I better get some sleep. 

p/s: Ya Allah, please let me sleep peacefully. I don't want any dreams like last night. If that's the way of you asking me to be cautious and not hold my hope so high, fine, I'll learn how to lower my expectations, InsyaAllah. But please, I really need a good night sleep.

A Letter from "Mom and Dad"...

My child,

When I get old, I hope you understand... 'n have patience with me
In case I break the plate, or spill soup on the table because I’m losing my eyesight,
I hope you don’t yell at me.
Older people are sensitive, always having self pity when you yell.
When my hearing gets worse 'n I can’t
hear what you’re saying, I hope you
don’t call me ‘Deaf!’
Please repeat what you said or write it
down.

I’m sorry, my child.
I’m getting older.
When my knees get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up.
Like how I used to help you while you
were little, learning how to walk. Please bear with me, when I keep
repeating myself like a broken record, I hope you just keep listening to me.

Please don’t make fun of me, or get sick of listening to me.
Do you remember when you were little 'n you wanted a ballon?
You repeated yourself over 'n over until you get what you wanted.
Please also pardon my smell. I smell like an old person.
Please don’t force me to shower.
My body is weak.
Old people get sick easily when they’re
cold. I hope I don’t gross you out.
Do you remember when you were little? I
used to chase you around because you
didn’t want to shower.
I hope you can be patient with me when
I’m always cranky. It’s all part of getting
old. You’ll understand when you’re older.
'n if you have spare time, I hope we can
talk even for a few minutes.
I’m always all by myself all the time, 'n
have no one to talk to.
I know you’re busy with work. Even if you’re not interested in my
stories, please have time for me. Do you remember when you were little? I
used to listen to your stories about your
teddy bear.

When the time comes, 'n I get ill 'n
bedridden, I hope you have the patience
to take care of me. I’m sorry if I accidentally wet the bed or
make a mess.
I hope you have the patience to take
care of me during the last few moments
of my life.
I’m not going to last much longer, anyway.

When the time of my death comes, I
hope you hold my hand 'n give me
strength to face death. 'n don’t worry..
When I finally meet our creator, I will
whisper in his ear to bless you. Because
you loved your Mom 'n Dad.

I still remember! Do you?

"There will be times when you will be in the field (or at the sea shore) without a camera. And, you will see the most glorious sunset or the most beautiful scene (or moment with your beloved one) that you have ever witnessed. Don't be bitter because you can't record it. Sit down, drink it in, and enjoy it for what it is!"

International Cul-tu-ral Day

I just came back from the International Cultural Day in UTeM. I have to tell you I like the backdrop on the stage, it's effortless but symbolized something magnificent; it showed there are many different countries with their unique yet distinct cultures. I wish I can put the picture here. So, roughly, there were 8 different booths all together (if I'm not mistaken) from different countries namely Sudan, Yemen, Palestine, Iraq, Indonesia, Malaysia (nak jugak!), Somaliland and Somalia (not so sure). Yeke? They were all dressed accordingly and decorated their  booths creatively equipped with stuffs like authentic attires, pictures, and traditional accessories. I'm sure they put a lot of effort in this. Not to mention, we were served with their traditional cuisine. I'm sooooo (exaggerating it cos it feels like eating Nasi Beriyani meh) used to the Yemeni's food but this was the very first time I had to taste the Palestine's exotic dish. Well, how do I describe it?

 

See the picture? That's it. I have no idea what that is called. I took the pic from Mr Google and the only difference from what I ate is that they served it with Humus. Humus is fine for me, used to have that quite a few times. Ok, I dunno what leaves are they, tasted it and I thought it's betel. I'm pretty sure, haha. It had this kind of dry but funny taste. Dry. Now what's inside the leaves? Jeng3x. It's a mix of rice and meat. So they said.  Well, this is definitely one of the dishes that I DO mind to try again. Dry, sour, bitter and funny taste. I did try to eat without the leaves but the leaves did not want to leave its taste on the rice. Man, this is real exotic! Completely blew my mind, =p

Well, I've to stop here. This will be continued as I will tell you how I almost cried when listened to Jalal and his friend reciting a poem, I Miss You Yemen...owh how touching, Till then...

:[

 What did I miss? I miss US.

This song is for you

Sayang, I miss you even more after listening to this song!

THE Classic Novel Collector ^ ^

Ok. This, totally, is my current interest. My fav would be Little Women (since I was a kid) and of course, Alice in Wonderland. Trying to finish Pride & Prejudice for the 2nd time but ugh, it's just-so-hard. Plus, my never-ending busy life, and marking them exam papers, yikes! 

I want the luxury of doing nothing but laying down and enjoying my books. Those were the days~ in a galaxy far, far away!

Anyhooo... I will leave all of you with my fav quote from the most well-known Wuthering Height, everyone's old time fav;

"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it."

Emily Bronte

p/s: How can you not love Wuthering Height?

saya da boleh senyum!

Pelik kan? Orang yang boleh buat kita happy adalah orang yang dah sakitkan hati kita? Orang yang sama. Orang yang kita sayang! Kenapa macam tu? Ada tak scientific explanation about this?

Tak suka, cakap!

Da 5 hari rase tak best! Macam mane nak pujuk hati ni? Sama je perangai diorang ni, apa yang bezanya? Kalau tiap-tiap hari macam ni, memang makan hati ulam jantung kot. Kerja, kerjalah! Aku, akulah! Asal nak campur aduk semua benda? Layan nak tak nak je. Macam tu ke cara layan orang yang kita sayang?

Da 5 hari jugak rasa sakit hati yang teramat sangat! Macam mane nak pujuk hati ni? Bila bandingkan dulu dan sekarang, jadi isu. So apa isu sekarang ni? Busy? Atau kena terima itulah diri dia yang sebenarnya? Aku tak habis mengenali dia lagi ke?

Da 5 hari menahan air mata ni dari mengalir. Sekarang dah tak boleh tertahan-tahan dah. Kecilnya hati. Peritnya telan. Nak tak nak, kena sabarlah menelan. Sampai dah tak boleh tertelan, baru fikir ape next move.

Genap 5 hari setelah munculnya 'pemunca' masalah sekarang! Tapi bagi dia, 'pemunca' itu bukanla satu isu.

Akulah isunya!

-ve 2 +ve

I don't remember when was the last time I feel like this:

Rasa nak bunuh orang sekarang! But on a second thought! I think I should just let this *stupidos* go and be:

HAPPY

SS = Simply Stupid

Ugh! Bencinya!

How could you miss someone else's bf? Sampai termasuk2 dalam mimpi? Ewww that's sick! Stupid3x!!!

xoxo

Muntah darah la my bf if I keep repeating 'I'm missing you'... Haha...

Deal with it!!!

*sigh*

This feeling I have is not a good one. Ya Allah, why I envy them? Why can't I be so grateful instead of being jealous and wanting what other people have? Why is it so hard for me to be contented of what I have? Why am I always hoping to be showered with things and unpromising materials? And suddenly I come to realize, "when was the last time I'd been pampered like them?" It must be ages ago. I lose count!

I am, still, just a girl! 

I am so in love with my BF

Met him yesterday. Now I'm missing him.

Met him just now. I already miss him. 

What is wrong with me? I miss his company. I miss his laughter. And I even miss him being annoying. 

It seems as if my whole world is evolved around him now. 

So I've decided to put his pic with his new hair cut here (owh he totally hates this cut) =p

I miss you darling. Thanks for always be by my side through thick and thin. 

p/s: cepatla balik syg :(

All work and no play

This entry has no relation to the title above!

I feel like running away and escaping to a world full with leprechauns. So I can catch one after another and get a lots of gold. Boleh? With gold, I can travel anywhere I like with anybody I desired. With gold, I can cure my mum. And with gold, I can fix myself!!!

Sadly, I don't live in my imagination!

Bye-Bye dik

So, apparently today he's leaving to the state. And the best part of it, I wasn't being informed! Checked the FB, tadda!!!

"well, the time has come. gonna leave malaysia for US today at 1515. to all friends n family, sory for all. please 

pray for me. Thanx!"

Tetibe je...................

Wawawawawa......quite upset didnt get to see him for the last time before his departure. Well, sure la sad! Only Allah knows what will happen to either of us while we're away. Sigh. 

Ya Allah, please protect my beloved brother there. i know he's grown up but he's too green. Guide him, don't ever leave him from your sight. i pray, he will never be alone there. And i pray, he'll come back as a man wiser than ever. Amin

Courtesy of  Sabrina Raslan, a friend of him, I reckon

p/s: We'll be missing you loads. 

People, watch this!

Good Morning =)

Good Morning to all haters and lovely people out there. This is random. Gosh I like random things now aight? So be it. I'm just wondering how it feels to be a school teacher? To be specific, an English high school teacher? Hah! Let's imagine. Owh I dare not! Save the nightmare for later, much much later heh. 

p/s: i certainly not like her heh

So, anyway, here I am this mornin', in this very cold office, treating cold with cold. Heh let's just hope no fool ruin my day today (including myself!) cos I really need to get today to be done and over with. Frickin tired eh. And let's just hope my bubbly decides to come home today. Not for the sake of my bloody birthday, but for me. Uwaa I like him around too much! 

FB status

I guess I have such a boring life when I am just sitting in front of my PC and starting to scroll up and down on FB news feed. And it comes to my knowledge that, we can easily know who the person is and what they're up to by just reading their status! Take my status as an example. 

Why do people like to butt into our personal matters?

What can you tell from the status? That I am not in a good mood? That I am currently annoyed at those people who like to meddle into my business? That I am feeling unhappy about it? Yeah absolutely! 

Thanks FB. Haha but don't over share. You may never know what will happen if you over shared your info. Stalkers etc meh!

Woodkid alert!!!

Alright. You know I love any good songs. And just recently I was introduced to this goosebumps-song by Mr Know-It-All. Guys, I super duper love this song. One can never deny how magnificent it is. So here, check out the song. Do listen ok!!!

And if you wanna know more about this song, you can google heh. As for the record, Woodkid is a stage name for a guy who has directed  Katy Perry's music video "Teenage Dream". He is Yoann Lemoine. And this MV is featuring Agyness Deyn, the model! And of course, he directed this MV himself. Soooo talented guys!!! 

p/s: I dont get the MV actually, pretty non-sense? But yes, the music beats everything. Goosebumps!!!!

The Wall by AGI

Quick Update #

Seriously, what makes you a quality person? What is/are the measurement/s, if there's any?

There's no price for awesomeness!

Yeehaw! Me feeling super duper happy. He's coming back, TODAY! Yeay Yeay! I still feel the buzz in my head though but that means nothing cos I'm feeling great people! And tomorrow, I will 'fly' to KL, meeting my dad and his family. Visiting KL always gives me positive vibes. Hey, I'm not rusa masuk kampung ok. It's just that I've got to go to BORDERS. Hell yeah! Books heaven! aaaaaaaaaaaaaa................

Gonna seize the day. My motto for today is: 

Well, as what Master Oogway said in Kung Fu Panda;

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. 

That is why it is called the present."
.

feel this way too?

DANCE

By Fadzilah Amin

We are like partners in the ronggeng,
Approaching nearer, nearer, nearer;
But just when one would think we’d meet at last,
We turn away, reverse our steps, withdraw.

And like the ronggeng too, my life seems now,
With steps mechanical, repeated, meaningless;
Arms swinging back and forth, expressing nothing,
Feet pacing up and down the floor, going nowhere.

I am tired of going through these ronggeng motions,
Long to break this impasse of reserve;
If only at one point our hands would clasp,
What rich variety of movement and gesture could be ours.


p/s : this poem tells what needs to be told. *sigh*

Be responsible of yourself. And your own action!

Shucks. I was so in the mood of singing but the radio kept on bla bla bla for minutes. Worse enough, no cds in the car. Grrr thus, I had a silent journey back home. Silent? Well, not really! On the way home, a very familiar word (surprisingly) stuck on my mind. Responsibility! This happened when I saw a bunch of UTeM's students were dragging themselves to attend co-curriculum activities in the afternoon after a long day of lectures and stuffs. Hurm. I am obviously not the one who is good enough to babbling about responsibility. Such a word that holds a great power. Not to talk about how to be responsible and etc though. Just ugh, random! We all have our own responsibilities. Way interested to describe mine. 

Halfway home, I decided to call my boo. God, I miss him. Not a minute passes by without me thinking of him. Again. Responsibility!!! He has his own responsibilities that need to be obliged. Guess I will have to bear with this. Being apart is not a bad thing after all. Gives me some time for myself.

And now, here I am, blogging, thinking of what to do for the rest of my night alone. Any suggestions?

Saya demam!

 I certainly am not complaining eh. But, my dear Fit isn't around. Such a waste. I could make him cook me a bowl of soup or porridge, aight? Perfect timing to bully him and he isn't here. Great! Will claim later, Fit, don't ever think you'll get away from this.

A terrible flu and bad headache make me bitter. Feels like there's a giant block on my head. Seriously! Again, I wish he's here. Flu, u suck my night! 

I really hope I feel better tomorrow. Sigh. Needs to hit the sack now. Muahks 

p/s: get well soon me!

Absence makes the heart grow fonder!

It doesn't feel right when he's not here. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. I can still think of him though I've tons of things to do at work. Well, women are multitask.
Hurm busy busy days ahead. Hopefully this goat's milk will help me sleep tonight after a series of bad nights. It says 'nutritious with no unpleasant smell'. Right! The smell! It does smell goat btw.

*cover the nose, check! and take a quick sip, gulp!*

Bluek!!! Gah! It's the price Im willing to take. Uwaaaa yuck yuck yuck

Look at the bright side. Only good healthy drinks and food smell and taste bad. *wink* haha

p/s : they say goat's milk is way better than cow's milk. Even our prophet, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. said that. So, people, 'they' produce cow's milk for us when they are actually drinking goat's milk cos they knew goat's milk is the greatest. (Of course, susu ibu lagi baik ye!)


p/p/s : the title of my post shows no correlation with my entry here. watevah good night folks.

phew

I'm back to blogging. Yeeehaw!

NUMB

It's never easy to take care of a sick mom. I am tested but my patience is very limited. Worry if I am no longer able to control myself and let the evil inside me takes over me. Sigh

*wink*

Dear walls,

Keep our secret. =p

                                                                 With love,
                                                                    F & H

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh

He is the reason I stay. Everyday is a struggle for me but I still stay. Sigh.

16th May

Happy Teacher's Day to all fantabulous teachers out there including myself. Surely, being a teacher makes us human! Teachers don't make a lot of money but we do generate engineers, architects, doctors, businessmen etc. And we are so damn proud to be one. Satisfaction guaranteed when we discover students we taught become successful.

I often ask myself 'when'

Whenever I feel like running from home, I would think of my mum's sacrifices. And that will surely hold my thought of running away.

p/s: I can be selfish, I can put myself first, BUT I'm living in the society that practices caring of other people's feelings first! Fucked up, eh.

He loves me no more

???

Ape ni? What happened to my blog? I changed so many things including the song. Grrr
Carca merba semua ni? Dengan mood yang macam taik ni. Siot la...

Tragic Pride!

Hates everyone around me now. They're such pain in you-know-where. What the fuck? Don't they have nothing else better to do than meddling in my business? Get the fuck outta my life. I'm better off without anybody. Damn. Stressful ok!!! I need some space, just let me breathe!

NEEDS an escape!

I do sound like someone who has given up on life, aight? I will apply for a loan, pay all bills,resignfrom my current job and lastly, fly to the states. This surely is not the last resort, the ultimate choice instead. Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Same old routines and fights. I want myself to be the center of my own attention. I don't want to think about other human being in this world. I wanna be selfish. I wanna be selfish!!! I want everything to just revolve around me and just me. I'm so daring to say fuck everyone else! I need the life I wanted so badly. I just want to do everything without ever giving a fuck about everyone else.

Sounds like a good plan, suicide indeed. But hell yeah, just wait till YOU PEOPLE succeed in reaching my BOILING POINT.

A Lil Convo

Did you just ask that?

Yeah, I did. But hurm, I should just cry to bed. Nobody cares...

I do, heh

I know right? I wish...Well, how I wish I'm Alice.

Why so?

So I can plan an escape.


LOL. You have so much fairytales in your head. Reality isn't so bad.

Hear you. Hear you.


Don't dwell too much in sadness. It can eat you inside out.

Better than living this way...

Much Awaited Proposal

I have what I want to say in my head but urm, too caught up with MUET plus writer's block! So, I'll update later. When I have all the time in the world. Heh btw, how do you want to be proposed?

Quick Update 3

*Busy mode has been activated*

Ok. Let's get this straight! ENGLISH teachers marry late? Ye meh? Cos I've seen a lot (countless) English Teachers who are not married yet and they're already mid 30s to late 40s. Uwaa! It's a curse ok! No No No! How superstitious I am. LOLs


p/s: You, yes you! Jom kawen! Kalau tak... *evil laughs*

Duh!

It's 4:30 am and I'm still awake! I must have no life.

Flu dont come!

Starts to feeling sick! This is no good. Wargh

Off to bed. Bye people

caugt in action! ayuni! ayuni!

Puzzled ed 2

Let say, you're seeing someone right now, and owh you're truly madly deeply in love with her. You spend time with her, tell her 'i love you' almost everyday and bla bla bla (including things you both say and do that can make u feel like the world is all yours!). You convince yourself that she's your true everlasting love. You take good care of her and she seems to care for you. And you know she loves you too. You can't wait to see her, you would try your very best to maintain the relationship, you solve every issue, you pamper her with cliche sweet sayings and etc. Deep down in your heart, the feeling  to make her yours is getting stronger. 

And suddenly...

After weeks, months, years of knowing and loving each other, not to forget, promising this and that to each other, things do not happen the way you wanted them to be. How? Just how? You're going to say those lame lines? 

*Tak ada jodoh?* *She's found someone better than me* *Ive found a better girl* 

*Kami tak serasi* *Dah takdir*

H-O-W

mode : missing him

 Si tamak! Tak cukup gelas kecik, nak gelas besar. Tak cukup 1, nak amek air orang pulak!!!












Terpaksalah menunggu air saya dikembalikan!
*muka dengan penuh kesabaran*

BEKC/2

 

See! How vain some of them are in the picture? Ahaks~ They're my students from BEKC, Section 2. Gosh! I miss them. The only thing I enjoy being in UTeM is meeting my students (walaupun ada yang sangat noty and loya buruk!!!). However,  there were some misunderstandings towards my attitude and style, but, owh Thank Allah, we managed to talk about it (think so!), I still adore them for their enthusiasm and courage in learning though What else can I say? They'd been such wonderful students and I really enjoyed teaching them. My best wishes are with all of you. Love ya! Study well. Play well. Balance is a must heh!

p/s: You guys rock! ;)

Quick update 2

Love it when we are able to communicate effectively. Hope this works.

Mode : W.E.

So you don't care! Why should I?

What else do I want?

He has done a lot for me {excluding giving me calla lilies and gifts which he claimed he wouldn't give to me!} but it still isn't enough for me. In fact, I'm yearning for more of his time, care and undivided attention. I feel sorry for him. To deal with a girl like me is a complete disaster. How does he manage heh?

p/s : Saya tamak. (in a good way?)

Liar liar, pants on fire. ouch!

I think my baby is coming home without telling me. Why is he denying it? *tak kan la gerak hati saya salah kot?*

Sayang, saya tau awak dlm LRT masa saya call tadi. You gave me enough hints. Yelah akan buat2 surprised jap lagi ye.

*dalam hati fikir ape nak buat malam ni dengan dia*

FTW

Am I staying with the Indonesians? 24H of sinetrons????? Boleh jadi gila ok! Mum, puh leez la change the channel to 711 ke 702 ke. 104 or 105 pun tak pe la.... *stress*


*sambil ternganga tengok pawan dalam tv guna air panas mandikan anak muridnya untuk complete kan ajaran ilmu hitam, ape ke bo...*

Radical Dreamers

Dare to tell me this is not magnificent?

Haunted!

Was flashbacking my life! Hurm not possible to forget things (not that I'm trying to forget anything!), but I've learnt to forgive myself of whatever I'd done before. But why something about his past keeps haunting me. Super duper torturing. I'm haunted by his pasts! And it's never healthy. Jealousy robs my peace. Again!

p/s: No, not saying I doubt him, not even one bit!

sayang o sayang

MOHD FITRI JAMALUDDIN

I really miss you. :'(
Baliklah cepat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grrrr

*apa yg syiok sgt dok kat KL ni? tell me tell me!!!*

My Promise (terpaksa!)

"agak down ngan result test tuh semua uff, sgt letih

+ ngan keja2 laen yg tertunggak neh uff

+ design skill yg kne wat model yg tah hape2 tu"

Darling, don't worry, sy akan jadi baik. I'll promise tak buat hal. Tunggu you settle everything, baru saya meroyan ok?

Mad Mad Night

I didn't mean to stalk but erm, how to explain heh? Well, you do notice there are 'Previous Status Updates' on the right side of FB aint it? So this one particular guy's status keeps appearing and I have succeeded in ignoring them all but ufff, I just failed. So I clicked on it and read. When I hit the back button to my page, it showed up again. Wargh! I'm annoyed+jealous+irritated! 

Ok. This is just so fucking ANNOYING.

Why him? Why his status keeps showing up? I hate to be remembered of his previous love life. Facebook sucks!

Get the hell outta my space!!!

Sweet + Funny

" Fit: dear wind...send my voice to her
Fit: so she can use fire to make some hot water for me
Fit: oii earth..make a land bridge between us now!! hurry liao "

Are you feeling like this?

I'm extra sensitive these few days. Could easily cry my eyes out for no good reasons. I feel rage, envy, hatred, bored and some weird feelings that cannot be defined. At times, I turn him to my enemy, yet he still controls his nerves, giving me the positive vibes. He does try his very best though. *I heart you much sayang*

There. There. Guilty wraps me. Uff...random stupid feelings I've been struggling with have robbed my tranquility.

Bubbly, I miss you heaps. 

p/s: I refuse to be insane. Just not yet!

Pre-Intro

I do enjoy meeting students regardless how weird and annoying their attitudes, sometimes, are. This semester, I've got to meet with the BEKC's and BITM's groups. I've learnt a lot with and from them. Meeting students is the most enjoyable feeling ever. 

I've learnt that...

1. good things come for those who wait

2. to know our strengths and weaknesses is a learning process

3. we need to accept who we are and appreciate ourselves

4. when we forgive ourselves and others, life becomes more meaningful

5. the only unconditional love in this world is mother's love!

i feel like...SHIT

*ihatemyself*

It's there...

Although it's not official yet, I'm brave enough to tell you readers, we're truly madly deeply in love with each other. And hey, he's mine! *evil laugh* Been spending my time with him this weekends and just can't get enough of him (cliche eh?). Today was the 'Walkhaton World Day', uff, he dragged me here and there and I ended up with muscle pain on my thighs. He'll 'pay' for this tomorrow. And oh, we just came back from Dataran 1 Malaysia. Main layang-layang, heee~ 

p/s: I like his eyes. So deep. This is NOT cliche at all. I've never found such eyes. How deep? Only me know!

p/p/s: He'll be away for 2 weeks, ufff, episod meroyan akan bermula. Grrr

What if?

1. Things don't go as I planned?

Puzzled.

Cysts on the left ovary. Definitely spice my life up now.

Perfect two by Auburn

Ain't it cute?

somebody, anybody...please make me feel better.

Have had the worst day ever. 

1. MUET thingy. Uff 

2. Haven't finished marking and assessing students' report presentation.

3. Visited a doctor and he refused to check me just because I have problems in my menstruation. What?

4. Went to TESCO to buy fruits but ugh *they should have just closed the store*

p/s: Know it all is correct. I need a vacation. 

FYP sucks

So my boo has problems with his proposal writing. How can I help? How should I help?


p/s: He totally affects my mood now. wargh

^ ^

quick update.

Feels so devastated with my mom. I just woke up and she picked on me? Huh she just encouraged me to get out from this house sooner than I think. Just gimme 1 good reason why I should live with her? I say, I'm still planning on migrating to Sarawak. This happens when I care about nothing else but me.

Ronggeng!

The two boys came to my house this evening and;

Ijam : 'Kak, jom karaoke, ak banje'

Me :  WHATTTT??? (sambil menjegilkan mata *serious ke budak ni*)

Ijam : Cepat le siap
Me : *run to the bathroom and get dressed asap*

Haha, yes! Finally, after, um, almost one year ok! Bukan tak nak pergi karok, tapi tak ada geng! Dush!!! Sampai je destinasi, berebut mic. Gila mic sorang2. 15 songs altogether sampai saya batuk-batuk. Wargh tapi puas.  
*Bubbly, sila jealous*

p/s: 

Ijam : Kak Hidayah, suara macam artis, asal tak jadi penyanyi? *dengan muka bajet bagus*

Me : ROFL nanti ramai pulak yang gilakan aku, hah, cam ne? 

Ijam : Eh, kawan owang suara dia best, sedap kalau kak duet dengan dia.

Me : Owh so?

Ijam : Esok kite repeat nak?

Me & Udin : *saling berpandangan and serentak bersuara, 'ko banje eh?', sambil tunjuk muka manis*

Ijam : Macam $%^&^$#% kowang ni, ye ar. Ok kak, esok aku bawak dia.

p/p/s: Ye, memang sangat suka kalau dapat duet dengan yang pandai nyanyi instead of Udin just now. WTF. Dunia batinku pun tak tahu. Shiat. Pape pun, berjaya meronggeng, ye meronggeng!!! dalam bilik tadi with the two cousins lagu 'Senggol-senggolan, cubit-cubitan' by Mas Idayu, tanpa disedari orang lain. *phew*

p/p/p/s: Bubbly, jom la karaoke dgn kite *batting eyelashes*

He's coming back soon!!!! ^ ^

Yeay, my handsome boo is coming back to Melaka on THURSDAY people. Sila jealous. Huh, 2 weeks of not seeing him is a total disaster. Rindu sangat2 nak menggedik dengan dia. Episod dating sampai muntah akan bermula tak lama lagi. Please la jealous lagi. Ahaks

*waiting waiting waiting*

keep my options wide? no?

feels stupid at this very cold night. haven't declared anything yet i'm worried sick??? have i lost my mind? owh, i've forgotten my mind isn't at the right place, duh! well, my precious princess, guardian of my heart, do learn from experience. Don't go for the looks, it can be deceiving! true!!! so f true. not mentioning about the physical attributes of a person though.

so, why worry? dunno? lame answer but true, i've no idea why. to say that i've fallen hard would be very over rated. worrying worrying worrying sick. 

*inhale* *exhaleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

ok. please be noted that this girl here is super duper selfish. she cares about nobody but herself. and starting from tonight, hell, she refuses to worry sick because the future is yet to discover. so, huh why worry duh? stupid stupid stupid me!!! *pat shoulders* what? 

p/s: Who knows where the road will lead us? Only a fool would say...

i still wanna live in my dreams

Previously, I did mention I wanna live in my dreams. Still. Imma very persistent huh? Tonight, I'm hoping that it'll come true. You think I am not in the right state of mind? A lot of confusion, not to forget, never ending unneeded stress will make you yearn for a life in your enchanting & carefree dreams. No? Guess I'm a total idiot. Owh but, I take pride in that!

p/s: Know-it-all, where the hell are you when i need you the most? i need you to knock me on my head and tell me the bitter truth. pffttt *off to my paradise* *boing boing boing*

p/p/s: back to loving Edward Cullen (hotness gentleman) and Kalona (yum-may fallen angel). At least, they would never ever hurt me, boo ya!

outing with BFF and her hubby

 

She's my BFF. Eliana but I call her Iyin. We're best friends since we're born, haha. Well, long story short, I had a date just now with her at Pulau Melaka (when we meet, the world is ours) but ugh, she's married so she had to drag her husband along with her. Not complaining, her husband is super cool though. I'm comfortable with him. Walla! I like when my BFF's husband can get along with me. Like uber cool. Oh and what the hell were they doing at Pulau Melaka? What else? FISHING??? Yeah, I dunno my BFF is into fishing also. Ahaks... 

p/s: There's one cute guy there. Muka baik gila, yikes tapi otak cam kitorang yang mereng bila jumpa! But then, who can compare to my boo? duh Oh I'm home and I have a ton of students' papers to be marked. Ganbatte!!! Plus, I need to have a virtual date with my boo too. Rindu ok =p

Pasangan Bahagia!!! 

Super duper sweet  (itu kebetulan saling memandang, shiat, saje nak buat kite CEMBURU) and
not to mention, mereng gak!!! LOL I heart you both.  (and Jeles)

Never be friend with the Devil

Either the real devil from hell or a person with evil qualities, yeah, just don't be friend with them. They may look handsome, but trust me, they're evil. More evil than the devils.

I wanna live in my dreams

So i had two weird dreams which i planned not to tell here.

He said maybe because you're weird. Ok fine. Not the kind of an answer that i expected but hell; he's just that unpredictable type of a person. Maybe he's right, I am just a weird girl. (Like he isn't!)

So, um, what's with all these dreams? WEIRD. As if they're so real. And i felt real in the dreams. Dreams that can make you so alive. So important. Like you belong there. Pffttt maybe it's just a magical place that i create in my sub-conscious mind.

Are there any inventions that can bring you into your dreams and you just live there. Not that i hate reality, reality is ? reality is what? Owh no, i'm stuck there! *sigh*

I seriously wanna live in my dreams. It's just so magical and magnificent. Hard to resist such temptation!

p/s: And Bubbly said I'm unique and he loves the freak in me. Muahks =p

bila sayang saya nak balik ni?

Rindu okay. Dia jauh!!! Berbatu2. chewah, exaggerate je saya ni. Lapar ni. Kalau dia ada, da pergi makan sesama. Kalau tak habis, dia akan habiskan...

So what's for supper? Lapar lapar lapar

ROTI PISANG!!!

 Our Fav!!! Super duper yummy

totally not a good sign when...

I FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH


owh please, just GTHOMDH!!!

I wanna order...hurm

1. life without stress

2. with dollars and pounds, of course

3. add on diamonds, gold and fame

Get my order right? Well, good. Alright, how much? *&^%$#$^&#$%

 

viola pansy

Alright. Buat ni masa bosan2 malam tadi. Sebab dia ada presentation FYP yang entah bila!!!

Cepatlah balik!!! Nak jalan2 kat Jonker Walk dengan awak, tak kisah la kalau awak tak beli barang pun... Pastu nak makan Choco Top (walaupun kakak tu buat tak tinggi mcm Eiffle Tower tu)... Pastu nak lepak kat Pantai Kite sampai pagi...

Cepat balik ye bubbly. Saya tak sabar nak jog dengan awak ni.

Star Ocean Till The End Of Time - So Alone, Be Sorrow

No idea where this song came from. Games on PS3? As usual, the person who gave me this song has only one intention on mind. To share good music with me but! He always gives me songs with sad melodies. Sigh. A good song though. My trains of thought has escaped to somewhere I can't tell here. LOL

p/s: I heart your good sense in Music. xoxo

2nd 'surprised' meeting

Today, all of them turned up. I was impressed. Coming in at 10am sharp, they're already waiting.

The handsome guy has a new haircut ((this is due to my mean commentary (he took it seriously, I'm awed =p) last week)) and he totally looks good today. Glad he took my advice. *chuckles*

The other two students were busying finishing the task I asked them to submit last Tuesday. What???

Long story short, I was feeling light headed. Guess the flu found its way to my body now. Wargh!!! (Should I blame someone for spreading the bitchy virus?) So, I postpone the class. As usual, students will be annoyingly happy when lecturers cancel classes.

So, ugh, all of them were there but I had to cancel the class. How sad!

p/s: there will be a replacement class next week. Be ready!

need I tell you more?

On the night like this

There's so many things I want to tell you

On the night like this

There's so many things I want to show you

Cause when you're around

I feel safe and warm

Cause when you're around

I can fall in love every day

In the case like this

There are a thousand good reasons

I want you to stay...